Friday, July 25, 2014

HUMILITY - Blessing in Disguise

“Humility = humbleness”

WOW!  What a fucking month!! 
I have always been humble…showed gratitude to all who partook in my life…before Mike, During Mike and After…at the ripe ole’ age of 35 had I never expected my adolescent stupid mistakes carry on into my now…welcome to Humility 101.

Ya’ll all know me…whether I see you in person often, text every hour, or via-Facebook (for this is the new norm – and I do not mind…we are all busy) and to allow minutes, hours out of our day to connect vi-internet to see children grow, families develop, and all other intimate details we share…here is mine.

I strive to be SOOOOO positive at all times, for I do not feel like it is your duty to take on any negative in my life – I like to use FB for Happiness, Kartwheels and rainbows ;) but in reality…I have daily struggles.  Had a great upbringing, took some uncharted paths and ultimately ended up marrying the love of my life…he was my true wave on wave.  During this Euphoria,  I ignored and blocked out all the mishaps of my early 20’s…DWI, minor traffic violations that I most likely got the notice and discredited and tossed into the “bill” pile and never looked back…oh my 20’s ---- they seemed so simple and something to never look back at…

As Ya’ll know – I have dreamed of  a JEEP since I was in high school…being raised on dirt roads during my Summers and knowing this vehicle line flowed through my blood…the chance recently came about to have my very own…little did I know 2001-2007 would hop my happiness train and welcome themselves aboard and remind me of what I never took care of and faced.   It has been heck ya’ll…applying for a simple loan to only realize you have NO credit then on top to realize your past quickly catches up with you in a heartbeat and 3K later…you are back to “normal”…(whatever that is)

I suppose my entry is to remind us all…we can run from our past…we can duck and hide and actually walk for a while…but it will catch up.

In closing…Be honest with your surroundings, be honest with your loved ones and FOREMOST, be honest with yourself ---- so worth it in the end.

As of today…I am a proud Owner of a JEEP ---- Ironically my payments start 10/11/14 --- Mike’s Birthday…Still think he remains to poke himself in my life --- I always welcome…


Thursday, July 3, 2014

THE 7 (scratch that)...6 YEAR ITCH


My math is SO bad…it would have been 6 years…not 7.  I will never forget the day he called me and asked me to meet him on the Court House steps and make it official --- July 3rd

I want to continue to thank ALL that have been a part of my life past, present and all that will be a part of my future.  I am a blessed to have been loved by such an amazing man! 
As I write this, I am so thank(FULL) for all the support and love from Ya’ll for acceptance and happiness for my NEW journey with “The Mister” ---  It is God’s will for the doors he closes in our lives he TRULY does open up a window and I have been granted a WIDE open window, an opportunity to love again and be loved – I deserve it…we ALL deserve it. 
Today I honor the vows I took with Mike…truly lived till death did us part, and today I continue to truck on and celebrate all the newness that comes my way and all the new memories I continue to make…memories that leave me with a smile at the end of the day…