Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Sigh No More





“Love; it will not betray you - Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free - Be more like the man you were made to be – Mumford & Sons”

Do you ever just drive…you hear a song…and not sure because I am not so satellite radio savey, I still have the 6 load CD disc player – yes, shall I hang my head to technology?  Re-playing a song over and over for whatever reason is such a treat!  Tonight as I write this, I cannot control the reset on my playlist to keep playing.

As I have stated in many entries, I have not done my best by all people I meet.  I was always told growing up, “you reap what you sow”…always thought that for children and know it speaks of it in the bible, yet I also know GOD forgives us for our sins – ALL our sins! We repent when we know we have wronged.  Even as the saying “Karma is a bitch” as I have used many times also – yes it is, and I will be the first to shout when a family member or friend is done wrong – but how do you use any of those sayings to someone who has not done anything negative in this world, such as a small child -- does it still exist?

Recently a friend of mine got attacked by the enemy.  A partner was lost to cancer.  Of course such a tragic event you could not even imagine anything worse happening to a loving spouse of years and then, when unexpected come home to a ransacked house.  Computers stole, memories gone, pure violation!  At this time one would scream as Tim McGraw did in his famous hit song “Take anything, just don’t take the girl”.  Fast forward, girl has been taken now the personal space. 

It’s hard to comprehend “Why Us?” We make mistakes, we move forward and we do so good to be the best we can. We wake up and our lives are changed forever.  We ask GOD is this all we can go through?? Please do not burden us with anymore.  I wish it was that easy for GOD to work that way…for when he places us in trials upon trials – I never look at is as “Karma”, it is and WILL remain HIS plan.  Hard to believe too many…even for me at times…

I wake up, I pray, I praise you in our dearest time of need and still thank you for where we are at – why me?  I work so hard and thank you for all I have down to the last .25 cents to buy a pack of Raman Noodle…why am I being stolen from?  I praise you for the gas to go to work, yet I blow a radiator cap on the way to work – twice as much money to replace!  For these are not and will remain not us to ask --- it remains HIS plan.

I end this in hoping we know it IS HIS plan --- whether it marriage, work, friendships, circumstances, relationships, etc…it WILL never be US – I have peace knowing this…

OXOXO LC



1 comment:

Vastine Bondurant said...

I refuse to believe we are punished for our wrong doings, because God is our Father, and He says if we seek forgiveness He puts our wrongdoings away from as---as far as the east is from the west.

And I believe in my heart he would never, ever punish our loved ones for the wrongs we ourselves have done.

I want to believe this. That these things are not punishments.

((((Love you)))