The Devil Went Down to Houston

By now all of you know that Mike was diagnosed with a cancer – at this point from his biopsy we the diagnosis is Lung cancer. Within one week our life has completely changed. I never imagined at our age this is something we would face in our household. I do know however, I can sulk and feel defeated but that is just not me!! The Devil has made his way to Houston – it is not a Golden Fiddle we are fighting for, it is Mike’s future – and as the old song goes “I told you once you Son of a B****, GOD is the BEST there’s ever been!”

About 2 weeks ago Mike went in for a physical. All checked out well except for an enlarged lymphnode that we noticed within a month has swollen and not gone down. After he received results back from his Dr. he pointed out the concern for the lymph nodes and was ordered to get an MRI for further investigation. When the results came back, there was major concern for what it looked like was Mike was facing possible lymphoma. At that moment I felt as though my stomach completely dropped and I had just seen a ghost. Our Dr. immediately called an ENT and we were in the next day to meet with a Dr. whom could examine and provide us with the next direction. Within minutes, we had an appointment at Methodist for a biopsy of the lymph node for Friday. As Friday approached we went to the Dr. and a biopsy was performed on the lymphnode of concern. After a few “Texas Sized Mosquito Bites” as the Dr. described…cells were removed and on their way to be examined to determine what we were facing…the days until the diagnosis seemed like forever!

In the meantime (so thankful for family so close) Mike’s sister and family invited us to their beach house for some Vitamin D and relaxation to ease Mike’s mind. It worked! We shopped Galveston (and welcomed 3 new family members to The Suter Bunch) Rockin, Spidey & Herman – Hermet Crabs The Boys purchased on the Boardwalk. We spent time at the pool, enjoyed some YUMMO Burgers and Fixins at The Purple Cow (in Freeport) – HIGHLY recommended if in the area! We made our way back to Houston and relaxed the rest of the weekend awaiting the week ahead and Mike’s results.

Monday came and what seemed like the loooooooooooooooooongest day ever, we received results that afternoon and the diagnosis – Lung Cancer. I know the first thought I should have had “This is one of the leading causes of death” not me! I cried and got it out – I immediately updated everyone and the prayers continued and Prayer Warriors (as my cousin calls them) started in and they continue to grow daily! I woke up yesterday with a Complete Calmness over me – it was as if GOD at that moment was allowing my body and soul to feel EVERY Prayer, EVERY Uplifting Spirit and His work – to ensure me that I must have peace at this time and know without at doubt that Mike is going to beat this – No doubt it may be a fight and there may be feelings of heartache and there are going to be tears – But to NOT Doubt him and his Power EVER! The BIBLE says “Be STRONG & COURAGEous; DO NOT Be Terrified; DO NOT Be Discouraged, LORD OUR GOD WILL Be With US Wherever WE Go! Joshua 1:9”

So that brings us to today. Our teams of Dr’s thus far are TRULY GOD sent! We within one week have had a biopsy along with results and ALREADY have an appointment with MD Anderson tomorrow! The meeting with MD Anderson is a consultation where we will meet our team of Drs and Nurses – They will determine whether or not more testing is needed and from there will configure with Mike and their team as to what treatment he will receive to rid him of this disease.

My Uncle called me last night and read me this verse “When YOU Pass Through Waters, I WILL Be With You; When YOU Pass Through Rivers, They WILL NOT Sweep Over You; When YOU Walk Through The Fire, YOU WILL NOT Be Burned - Isaiah 43:2” I know the road ahead we will face High waters and uncontrollable rivers, but in Our Hearts GOD lies along with all prayers that are being said for Mike, Me and our family, we will surely stay afloat!

I will use my blog to keep you all posted and provide updates along with Facebook and emails as well. We love you ALL – and thankful to have such an Amazing Team of Family, Friends and Prayer Warriors seeing us through this journey!

Here's To YOU Mr. Inventor...OF NOTHING but Being a DOUCHEbag!

Ugh! Where do I even begin? Well I will first start off by washing the puke from my mouth.

Why Cheat? REALLY? Other than giving us a reason for 'War of The Roses' on a popular local radio station (which by the way I hate also) or is it for that one chance of dipping your "Stick" into another outlet and gaining back the Already LARGE ego that you obviously had to begin with to make you think you are King-Ding-Dong in the first place...Now don't get me wrong, it is not just pointed at the Male Species, there are plenty of Females that don't feel the need to repect the sanctity of Marrige either and mosey onto other playgrounds as well.

Before I even started this, I thought hard. I thought hard because I have known people...VERY close to me that have wondered out of their relationship for a few fun times, so I feel that I pose a double-standard here...BUT I feel that those situations (NOT because of the friendship) but because of the situation that they were in, they might have strayed to escape the insanity of that relationship for that moment.

Now moving forward -- It just seems too common now these days that cheating is OK in our society by so many people - and the thing that I think makes me sick is just the decete, the lies and the embarassment. I being the Trash-ality Whore that I am, I L-O-V-E me a good tabloid cover, but the most recent one just has blown me away -- I think mainly because of the emabarressment that we all know too well! The support of a loving wife, doting after significant other -- thanking "him/her" for having our "back"...while all along they are having someone else's "backside" <---- (Thank you for the quote) It's sickening! I just don't get it -- WHY CHEAT?

I suppose again there are ALL sorts of reasons...as before the situation you are in...WELL why not leave? If you are so unhappy in the current situation and your other half doesnt know or realize that you are yearning for a little more spice, why not be honest? I know and feel that it is easier said than done. If it were me and My husband felt the need to wonder, I would have no respect either way if he cheated, but I would understand telling me that I no longer "Fill His Love Tank" <--- (Thanks Real HW of OC) rather than EVERYONE else knowing about this and not me...How aweful!

As I said, this goes both ways -- there are women that contribute to this nastiness also. But I just do not get how you can be married/exclusively dating (and I use exclusivly because I once was very picky about that word while dating) why would you risk what you have for a dishonest (more than likely 5 minute) fun hump? I wish I understood the urges. Is it the Hot Bodies? The Boobies? The wildness that your not getting at home? The convesrsation that you lack from your partner...that emotional connection? Well SHIT people ADDress these issues, DOnt cheat! Seriously!!

Ok ok - its easier said than done -- REALLY? Is it that hard to pop in an adult book store (the clean ones) and find some books/dvds/toys to add to your bedroom. Is really that hard to take a night (I know I know also --- kids, the kids REALLY take away the time for US) Hmmm, well thats funny, you have time to F*** someone else...oh that's right, your wife/hubby is at home with the kids -- SHIT! Well I suppose there are ALL sorts of excuses for cheating then. NOOOOOOOO! If you are NOT feeling that Emotional connection, try talking -- Relationships are WORK, they are not easy -- (Hmmm ok that's why it's better to cheat EASY - no work involved) well then you shouldn't be in a relationship if all you want to do is SCREW w/o commitment. (Not Knocking that, I was single -- the key word SINGLE). Back to the work part...take that time while the kids are in bed and spend a few extra minutes away from the lap top working and returning emails, stop cleaning the house like a maniac for a second, turn off the TV (for Goodness sake we all have TIVO & if not - there WILL be repeats :) believe me! I am the queen of TV re-runs!) All I'm saying is if you are in-love and you still believe in what marriage stands for, make it work before you cheat and hurt not only the ones you love, but hurt yourself.

All in all I just feel now that the times are getting to be so hazy -- we are ALL so fast paced and busy - and maybe a marriage does feel dull...make it un-dull! Add some spice, reconnect DONT give-up. Find that spark you once had before you wonder into "Greener" pastures -- as the old saying "The Grass is not ALWAYS Greener on the OTHER Side, if it is, there is USUALLY alot of SHIT and you will step in it :)"

In the misdst of all the news of affairs and Ultimate Douchebags & Douchettes that are in the news -- don't become a statistic, fight for the one you love...the one you fell in love with - WORK TO MAKE IT WORK!

P.S. If you are in an abusive relationship, etc -- of course run for the hills and dump this Jack-ass or Jack-ASset on his/her butt and find happiness, NOONE should stay in an abusive relationship - Verbal or Physical.

NO MORE #10 -- NOW JUST ME #1

T-Minus 5 Days and it ALL goes down...or should I say OUT! OMG! I cannot even begin to explain the joy today has brought me and all that I have learned.

It all started years ago -- I have had this little peculiar tooth that has developed it's own little world in my mouth, almost like it's own neighborhood. It has been all alone ever since I can remember and not until a few weeks ago did I learn that it can be pulled and not effect my mouth and the orthodontics that I have scheduled in the near future! This little tooth - #10, as Dr. Fisher named it ( I like little me) ;) moved to the roof of my mouth years ago and has stayed and been pleasantly fine all alone all these years. No longer, she will no longer be part of me as of Monday (I have kart-wheeled for the past 2 weeks in preparation!).

You know when I was younger, I look back and kids are REALLY cruel, very cruel. I remember being made fun of because of my crooked smile and my Little Ms. #10 - kids didn't understand how a tooth could grow in the middle of the roof of my mouth and it not hurt, well it just didn't...their faces I remember not hurting them, but they sure killed me ;) haha! (Sorry just a joke I hear between Hubby and his Friends) Anyhow, the thing is this tooth and my crooked smile never phased me - I know I am beautiful inside and out with minor imperfections, but I feel GOD makes us all different and those differences make us stronger.

So as I got older, I still never was phased by my tooth or even my teeth, not until I got into my 20's and it became apparent that my tooth became topic of conversations and even overheard people poking fun of it and it started to work on my insecurity. I knew kids where mean in grade-school and for some reason it didn't hurt as bad as it did in my adulthood. I never was educated on the reason for my teeth...the way they were crooked, little straggler #10 etc. I never had insurance that allowed me to freely visit the dentist and have teeth pulled and have the opportunity to have a dentist sit with me and explain the options I have or what causes this to happen...Not until NOW! I am blessed beyond belief to have insurance and now be able to move forward and work on my Beautiful (slightly imperfect) smile!

I visited my Orthodontist today about moving forward with Orthodontics once #10 is extracted and what the heck has caused my teeth to become the way they are? I wasn't a thumb sucker, I took care of my teeth growing up...he was so very informative and now I know this is caused by something so very common...I am a CHRONIC Mouth Breather! What What? --

www.buteyko.ie/mouth%20breathing%20and%20crooked%20teeth.pdf

(this is just a website I found that explains alot) I feel it is so important to educate ourselves on issues that are health related and maybe it will help others before it gets beyond help.


I GOOGLED alot and I cannot believe I have never known this -- it's no ones fault but my own, I just never knew and maybe just happy with what I was dealt and have learned to make it work for me -- I feel my smile is contagious, and of course what comes out of it -- "Shakin My Head Like Yeah! Pulling some teeth like YEAH!"

Once I was told this and the effects and how all of this works together in the development of the teeth I felt a light went off and I swear I saw an exterior glow around Dr. Freeman and even a halo -- I cried...I'm 30 years old and there is hope for me...I can have this corrected and move forward with having my breathing corrected and my teeth...ME!

So starting Monday I begin my journey and I know I will feel different - #10 has become a part me and has ALWAYS been a part of me and no longer --- it's a little sad...maybe it's like having a mole removed, either way I'm excited to feel the difference, see the difference and laugh with my head nodded back with no insecurity!! I saw this today on My friends page -- "Some people try to control another by planting a seed of doubt. In my opinion the fact that they try to plant that seed speak wonders of their insecurities." <----- Amen to that! Shame on all you (not so good people) throughout my life that have planted doubts of seeds in my head that because of my #10 I was not as pretty as others or different than you & shame on you for making others feel the same -- shame on you!

Whoo hoo!! "Thanking MY GOD Like YEAH! Knowing He has BLESSED us like YEAH!"

P.S. Thank YOU ALL who are reading this -- You are my TRUE Friends and My Family that I ADORE! Thank you for ALL your LOVE & Support for my past 30 years and ALL the LOVE & Support I will receive in MY NEXT 30 YEARS!

XOOX

MY NEXT 30 YEARS...

As 2010 has rolled in and not slowed down at all and I start to realize I’m going on my 31st year of being here I skim through my play list and reflect on the song that you just cant help but sing to, even if your not a Country Music fan (even though I know we all have a little in us)

Tim McGraw belts out “Hey my next thirty years I’m gonna have some fun, Try to forget about all the crazy things I’ve done , Maybe now I’ve conquered all my adolescent fears , And I’ll do it better in my next thirty years”

What a GREAT verse – except for one thing (for me at least) I don’t want to forget about ALL the crazy things I have done – it is what has made me, well ME! Lord knows all to well I have done my share of the crazies – but yet I choose not to FORGET them – WHY? Do you notice that not one thing that you have done is forgotten…I’m serious. I’ve learned in my 30 years – “FEAR LESS, REGRET NOTHING” and by that I take that I walk into each and everyday fearless and know that I am EXACTLY where I am supposed to be – and I have been where I was supposed to GO and I am headed where I am I am supposed to be GOING. How refreshing!

Back to 2010 and MY next 30 years – I am anxious to “Keep on Keeping On” and remember “Life’s a Garden – Dig IT!” (Thanks Joe Di-rte’) I sure have come so far with my Husband, Family & have amazing Friends who I wouldn’t trade for A Million Dollar Gift card from Fallas Parades ;) GOD has showed myself & Family unconditional LOVE & Blessed us in ways that 6 years ago working for “The Devil (who wore) an Elastic Wasteband, Partying HARD EVERY night, feeling that I was not EVER going to Escape the life I was leading and the life I was leading was leading me into a dead-end nowhere, as though I felt…BUT By The GRACE of GOD I have traveled, seen MUCH and have learned that those trials have made me the STRONG , Conditioned, Humble person I am today - So I have NO Regrets – and I hope that EVERYONE has that peace – It feels oh SO good!

As I have said before as well, I’m So OVER 2009 & Feeling so 2000-Fine, but yet again thankful for what that year brought into my life and thankful for A LOT that it took out.

As I look on and forward into MY Next 30 years --- I am TRULY Excited to what it has to offer. I’ve decided rather wake up everyday and look at it as a “Monday” or a “Wednesday” and even as good as it feels “A Friday” – I choose to wake UP EVERYDAY and know It’s “GOD’s DAY!”

Hope you all are being treated well in 2010 and have MUCH Positive Energy filled with Daily Inspiration, No matter what form it comes in! As I always wish to YOU ALL – May you have Internal Sunshine, a Play-list in your Head that is RAD-ASS and the ability to Do Kart-Wheels and Back-Flips down your Hallways, through your home or Just in your Head!