“If my leg falls off, I'll get a prosthetic - There'd be no deep sadness
about...I'd just get on with it - It's
called life, and I LOVE life! You HAVE to be POSITIVE, and you HAVE to crack on
no matter what -John Lydon”
Wow! Hello Ya’ll – I have become a little sporadic
in my blogging…something I clinged to during Mike and I’s journey…not only to
keep you all in the loop the easiest way I knew, but for my own sanity as well –
I could wrap myself up in words and turn a simple day of anything into
providing every detail to ensure you all knew our every step and felt as if you
were there…during the journey and even as “our” journey ended and “my” journey
started as…Lyndie…not JUST a widow.
2014 has already proved to be an inspiring and
happy year -- Work remains amazing, family and friends continue to just prove
themselves and remind me how blessed I
am to have each and every one in my life…whether I see and talk daily, weekly,
monthly or the occasional (Thumbs Up ;) on Facebook – haha! and I have been
blessed with another chance of happiness.
After Mike’s passing, so many different emotions of how I was supposed
to grieve, how long, “to date or not to date?” ---- as I have stated before,
after losing Mike, I surely did not receive a handbook on wrongs or rights in
this new norm. I did not have direction
from anyone that was walking in my shoes with advice as to the “protocol” of
what my next move was to be --- was I to pass GO and collect a new life? Mike was loved by so many – we both were
loved by many – I continue to be loved by many and his memory lives on and
cherished by the same many…
I
took a chance on dating, floundering like a fish out of water for the past year
and half, knowing that it was no longer “Mike and Lyndie”, yet I was out on my
own – I could choose to LIVE or Die --- after losing him, for one hour I
debated not wanting to be here without him…how could I go on? He rescued me when I was drowning, he will
forever be my “Wave on Wave”, yet for me to give up, I would be the ultimate
loser – Mike fought his ass off during his journey with that shit-face “leech”
called Cancer – and in the end – Mike said Adios Asshole --- I have better
things waiting for me --- he now is where we all yearn to be when it is our
time…
Leaving
2013 and only praying that 2014 would offer light, hope and the chance of
change…I was blessed…I met Bradley. I
never asked GOD to provide me with someone with an understanding of where I
have been or where I am going…yet just to when the time arises, place someone
in my life that doesn’t have to understand me, where I have been, where I am
going, yet just love me and like me a little bit sometimes ;) ---- GOD provided. He too is widowed…a commonality that I surely
hate that we share, yet I can only hope that the Good Man Above knew not only
handling this “Firecracker” of a gal, he too can handle my zero to sixty
emotional breakdowns without a head turn or blink of an eye, just as I can his…
It
is a day to day process…we are happy…no “Agenda”…only thing on our schedule is
Happiness, laughs, a lot of Hugs and complete understanding even we do not
understand but just know we “get it”
As
always, I thank Ya’ll ---- since day one May 20, 1979 ---- GOD has been pretty
Rad-ASS in putting people in my life at all the right times and keeping me a
pretty great flow on a daily basis --- XOXOXOXOOX
XO
LC
